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Soli Deo Gloria! Pastor Jim
The metaphor of a wilderness journey for Lent has a lot of biblical resonance. From the Israelites’ 40 year wilderness school after slavery in Egypt to Jesus’ 40 days before he launches his ministry, the rocky places outside the cities in the Holy Land are the thin places where spiritual realities take form. Yet almost any wilderness journey will do as a metaphor for Lent. Those of us who take an occasional trip to wild places know that these places can be life-giving, but you wouldn’t want to live there long term because the wilderness changes you in drastic ways. If you’ve seen the Tom Hanks movie Castaway or read John Krakauer’s book Into the Wild about the wilderness life and death of 20-something Chris McCandless, you know the wilderness can be devastating over long periods of time. And if you’ve gone camping or backpacking or canoeing in the wilderness, you know short periods are refreshing.
Lent with its 40 day wilderness sojourn can be refreshing, especially knowing that we get a break on Sundays and that the greatest three days of the Church year come at the end. But the Lenten wilderness can be tough to enter into when you’ve been in the wilderness long enough already. The wilderness is different for everybody, but we’ve all been there. The death of a loved one, depression, divorce, unemployment, fear of failure, waiting for some good news to come to you. Wilderness in short bouts can be refreshing and renewing, much like the season of Lent is supposed to be. But wilderness for a long time changes you.
Stuck in the wilderness of unemployment, you may end up wandering into the wilderness of depression and then the wilderness of fear of failure. Once you get into the wilderness and stay there for a long while it is practically impossible to get out by yourself because you end up getting used to living there. You get accustomed to scavenging for food, searching for a water source, sleeping with one eye open for fear of wild animals, and living without interaction with another person.
So if you have been living in the wilderness quite some time already and then the season of Lent comes along and your pastor says, “Welcome to the Lenten wilderness” you’ll probably say, “I’ve been here in the wilderness all along. I have no desire to intentionally go deeper into the wilderness. Thank you very much.”
That’s the challenge that faces us this Lenten season. Yet another year in the wilderness of national economic hardship, high unemployment rates, and government bickering. Yet another year in the wilderness of Norwich with its depressed economy, foreclosed houses, and partially built hotels along Interstate 395. And yet another year in the wilderness we call home here at St. Mark where money is short, the furnace causes us problems, the roof leaks, Sunday School is small, and the pews are not as full as they used to be. Not a week goes by that I do not hear some variation on any of of these from a church member. “Welcome to the wilderness indeed. We’ve been here a while.”
And of course, living in the wilderness for a while changes people. Food is scarce so people slim down, clothing becomes tattered and torn after a while, basic instincts cut in for the sake of extending life as long as possible, and for people of faith the questions of faith start popping up.
Why did God allow this to happen? We have been faithful, why do we have to go through this? And like the Israelites asking Moses in the wilderness, “Did you and God bring us out here to die? We were better off in slavery! At least we had some food on our tables and we knew what life was going to be like tomorrow and the next day and the next day. Let us go back to the comforts of slavery.”
The wilderness is a tough place to live for an extended period of time. It’s fun for short camping trips, but long periods in the wilderness are definitely not like staying at the Holiday Inn with comfy beds and continental breakfasts. The wilderness can be refreshing for short 40-day sojourns with breaks on Sundays, but the wilderness for long periods is uncomfortable. And if you’ve been in the wilderness for a long time you naturally either adapt with basic instincts taking over or you cope by telling yourself, “well, it could be worse. This isn’t so bad.” That’s the natural way of doing things.
But the Biblical witness to times in the wilderness says something utterly different. The Biblical witness tells us the wilderness is where we encounter God. The Biblical witness tells us the wilderness is where we receive our call to mission, our purpose, from God. The Biblical witness tells us the wilderness is where we can be honest with ourselves and honest with God. It tells us we can scream at God, cry with God, laugh with God, ask questions of God, and call out to God. It is a place for frank and unrestrained conversations between God and God’s people.
Yet the question always arises when people discover they are in the wilderness, “I’m not sure how to be frank and unrestrained when I talk to God. Where do I find the words?” And most pastors say, “Look to the psalms.” Because the psalms are frank, unrestrained conversations between God’s people and God. Some are prayers and praises that soar to the heights of spiritual devotion. Some arise from the deepest pain and distress and display the depths of human misery, anger, and frustration. A few are complacent and self-congratulatory, and a few others are militant and chauvinistic. The psalms reflect the emotions of faith. They rejoice in the times of abundance, they wallow in times of scarcity. They give voice to people in the wilderness who may feel they have lost their voice or lost God’s ear or feel they cannot hear God’s voice.
Yet at the heart of the psalms is the conviction that God is one to whom all can speak and one who will speak even if we need to listen silently for a time. And our psalm today gives a strong account of that. In a short fourteen verses, the psalmist speaks of confident trust in God (The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom then shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?), doubt in God’s listening abilities (Hear my voice, O Lord, when I call; have mercy on me and answer me), anger at God’s absence (Hide not your face from me, turn not away from your servant in anger…), and back to confident trust in God (This I believe – that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord and be strong. Take heart and wait for the Lord!). Yet through it all, through the changes of life, the wavering between trust and doubt, anger and love, the psalmist knows that God is one to whom he can speak.
The psalmist knows that, because that is what God has promised to us. We can call out to God during the times we are in cities and in the wilderness, because God has promised us that God is for us, that God will hear us, and that God will speak to us even if we must wait a while. So that is what we cling to in the cities and the wilderness. We cling to God’s promises even when God’s face may be hidden, because God promised us that God is for us. We even, like the psalmist, remind God of God’s promises just in case God forgot because God promised us that God is for us.
It has been said that Martin Luther once wrote that if God came to his doorstep tomorrow and announced that on second thought God was not going to save him, Luther would respond, “Too late, I have your promise.” In Luther’s trademark lack of humility it is an appropriate response. For God has taken us up and promised us that we will not be abandoned. And like Brother Martin and the psalmist, reminding God of that promise is also a way to remind us of what God has promised. Even if our time in the wilderness has been longer than 40 days, God has promised to not abandon us. Even in the wilderness of Lent or in the wilderness of our lives we can confidently speak of God’s promise with the psalmist, “This I believe – that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of living! Wait for the Lord and be strong. Take heart and wait for the Lord!”